Rant #3,945: I Don't Know

Having surgery isn't fun. 

I have now had a couple of surgeries related to what ails me, and while these procedures benefit me in the long run, in the short term, their aftermath is annoying and yes, a bit depressing.

Take my latest surgery, which took place on Friday.

I did it, I got through it, but the anxiety with it continues.

I pushed myself this past weekend, and even though I was not myself--and still aren't, to be honest with you--I think I did the right thing.

Sitting around is not my thing, and I didn't, to a certain extent.

This "pushing myself" is wrapped around what is continuing to ail me, and I won't get into it too deep, because it is nothing I really feel the need to talk about to anyone but my immediate family.

But the aftermath--the "afterglow" of all of this--upsets me to no end.

I have to do this procedure once a day for a few days, to flush out whatever is ailing me naturally.

I have to drink pretty much an entire bottle of water at one sitting.

Then I have to wait a half an hour.

After that half an hour is over, I have to curl up on my bed, with my legs raised up way over my body.

I do this using a succession of pillows.

I have to lay on my right side for an additional half hour in this position, which is not only annoying, but it is uncomfortable.

I pretty much am in this position with my eyes closed, and the television on, but I cannot really watch the TV because I am in such an awkward position.

After a half hour of doing this, I then have to drink what amounts to another bottle of water--

And then see what happens.

I know it is part of the procedure, but boy, is it annoying!

But I am doing it, and I don't know if it is working or not.

Otherwise, especially after drinking all of that water, I feel bloated for a good part of the day, and since I am not 100 percent anyway, it is making me feel a bit sluggish, and certainly not myself.

But like I said in the past, I will do whatever I have to do to get better, and if this is part of it, then so be it.

It is temporary, anyway, so I just have to grin and bear it for now.

It is just another brick in my load, I guess.

I still have at least one more procedure, which I believe soon will take place after I get another catscan, and then, perhaps, we will have a better read on what is ailing me.

I already know one of things that is ailing me, which I will keep to myself right now, but I am sure that I, and my doctors, will find out more as we go along this path to get me to good health.

It is a process, a kind of a long process, but I guess things could be worse ...

I guess.

2026 has been a very rough year for myself and my family, and although the first nearly half of the year has been horrid, I am hoping the second part of the year is better.

I have so much I want to do, and I can only do it with good health.