This is going to be a very difficult Rant to put together for you, but I feel that it is my duty to get it done.
I had several doctors' appointments last week, and none of them were good.
Without going into great detail, even though I feel fine, I am not doing well health-wise.
I am going to need a number of procedures done to make me healthy again.
I had a catscan on my lung, because something untoward came up in a previous catscan. I soon have to go and get other tests to make sure that that part of my body is OK.
I have some more cancer on my head, so I got it removed, and hopefully, i won't have to go through the staples thing again.
I have some urological troubles, and they must be taken care of sooner rather than later. I am getting that surgical procedure done On Monday morning, in a local hospital, and I am very nervous about it.
Then I have to get a colonoscopy, where I am hopeful that what is found can be taken care of. And let me tell you, due to circumstances beyond my control, I am scheduled to have this procedure done--
On my birthday, April 28.
And I still have the partially detached retina in my eye, which isn't going away anytime soon.
Again, I am not going into details right now, but if you break it all down, it isn't anything good.
Not good at all ... as the "C word" is a possibility.
As I approach my 69th birthday next month, I am a broken person.
My body is failing me.
Maybe I shouldn't complain, since for more than 60 years, my body gave me little to no problems.
I had my gall bladder removed on my 50th birthday, but honestly, that was it.
However, for the past three or so years, my body has taken a downward plunge.
I don't know for sure if it has to do with aging, or things had been brewing for years and no one knew it, but things are absolutely not too good right now.
And again, I feel fine; a minor ache or pain here or there, but nothing to suggest what I am facing.
What i am facing is not just a broken body but also an empty pocketbook, because insurance will only pay for so much, and my money us being drained by all if these doctors' visits and procedures that i need.
Let me add that I am not giving up on work.
I told the team I work with all about this the other afternoon, and they were very supportive.
I let them know that I will still be supplying material for them on a daily basis, but that I am going to have to step back from the bigger things, like covering meetings and conventions and the like.
I told them that I still want to be in the loop, and to not forget about me--
Because I might be down and out, but I am not done just yet.
And let's be honest about it--
I desperately need the money.
The same thing goes for the Blog.
I am not giving it up, period.
Maybe some days I might not post anything as all these things are coming up, but I simply will not give it up.
So you will continue to see content at the Blog as we push to Rant #4,000 later this year.
Writing is my salvation.
It makes me feel good, takes away my worries for a little while, and actually, keeps me healthy, so the Ranting and Raving Blog will live on.
You can count on that.
And I will too.
"A mere bag of shells ... ."
Not really, but let's just say that all of this, all at once, is a bit of a speed bump in the road.





