Rant #3,232: Get Ready

Yesterday, I went for the surgery prep at the hospital that is performing my surgery next Wednesday.

I just want this entire nightmare to be over.

Everything went well yesterday, so I am ready to go.

My leg actually isn't has sore as it had been, but it still is out of whack, which the surgery will certainly correct.

Since I am in somewhat if a contorted position, my neck and back are hurting me, and not being able to get upstairs and sleep in my bed isn't making me feel any better, both emotionally and physically ... and mentally, too.

I still go over the entire accident in my head I've and over and over again, and it makes no sense.

But it happened. It is what it is, and I will get through all of this.

My wife and son have been great about all of this. They have helped me at every turn, and they keep keeping going.

About the only good thing about this mess us that I can continue to work, which is a good thing for me.

It takes my mind off of things, at least for a little while.

Will I ever get upstairs in this house I have called home for the past 50 years? 

I simply don't know. 

But what I do know is that I am going to have to get up the stairs in the new place, and once I get up those stairs. I will be beginning my new life in our new residence, finally closing the chapter--hopefully-- on the mess that the old house had become to myself and my family.

And that is the goal now: to get out of here in one piece.

I know I can do it ...

There is no alternative.