Rant #1,952: Turn Down Day

I continue to have a black cloud hanging over me.

It seems that everything that I do, while well meaning, just doesn't add up to much.

Yesterday at work--where the stress level is beyond the breaking point--I did something that again, was well meaning, but ended up being a stupid thing to do.

We use Safari on our browsers at work, and we have Macs that are about four years old, so these machines are considered to be old by current standards.

But they do work pretty well, and let us get done what we need to get done.

However, lately, I have found that Safari, or at least the version of Safari that we are using, doesn't work very well.

I click onto numerous sites where I come up blank, and my computer tells me that I should update the Safari that I am using.

I became so frustrated early yesterday that I attempted to do just that, with disastrous results.

I tried to updated the browser, through the Apple site, but because I have an older machine and what I have would not take the Safari I tried to load, I effectively wiped out the Safari I had.

So I went from an old Safari to no Safari at all.

If that were just the case, I could live with it, because I also use Google Chrome to surf the Internet, so I was safe. Or so I thought.

When I wiped out my Safari, I also wiped out the program that allows me to open photos on my computer.

I could also live with that. There are other ways to open photos on my computer, including hitting Apple and then I. It works fine.

But then, in something completely unrelated, or at least so I thought, I could not get into my email at all.

I don't know if it is related to the other things, or it was simply coincidence, but my email completely locked up by late morning.

Email is the lifeblood of our company, the way we get our information or ask questions related to what we are doing.

Without email, I am sunk.

The funny thing is that the email was fine until late morning. I used it several times, and it ran like it always does.

But then it died.

Supposedly, the only thing I can do is to completely reboot the operating system, and that is supposedly what was done after I left yesterday.

Anyone who has done this knows it can be very time consuming, so I hope that it works.

And yes, I did back up everything, and I mean everything, that I need to do my job, so I have that, and I won't lose that due to any rebooting.

So once again, I did the right thing, only having it become the wrong thing, and it befuddles me how to get out from under this cloud that I am in right now.

I have to start doing the right thing, having it come out like it should come out, and go on my merry way.

It just hasn't been that way lately, and maybe, just maybe, the problem is that I am thinking too much.

Maybe I should just not think, and just do.

That isn't me, the real me, but maybe, that is the way to turn that gray cloud into a white one again.

At this point, I just don't know.